The title you see before you are the exact words that were rolling around my head last Thursday! Don't get me wrong clothes and fashion is my oxygen in life, I genuinely couldn't live without it! HOWEVER, learning to sew, however necessary it is; is something I just can not seem to get my head round at all! I think what hasn't helped for me personally is that to be perfectly honest skirts are the bane of my life anyway, I don't mind them maxi and I don't mind them black... Anything else, no thank you! I'm a tailored trousers girl and always will be, skirts were something I didn't grow into until I was at least 16!
I think the problem with my in-ability to enjoy sewing is that I can't already do it, I don't like not being able to do everything. It sounds silly, but I have to be busy all of the time and more importantly I need to do whatever I am doing right all the time. I don't like making mistakes and being a stubborn perfectionist is something I was born with! (College have probably noticed this and equally don't appreciate it, not many do so I can hardly blame them really!)
Unfortunately, because I couldn't sew perfectly, independently and efficiently from the word go, I felt intimidated and uncomfortable so there for my natural instinct was to hide from it, now like most things in life there is something I should have realised months ago would occur from doing this. If you avoid it, it only gets worse. AND BY JOVE HAS IT! I was, and to an extent still am, depressingly behind with my practical classes. I'm embarrassed in a way because I feel like its really let people down as well as myself all from hiding away, if I had just grown a pair and asked for help instead of being pig-headed and arrogant I would have probably escaped the mess!
Luckily for me my tutors are like little guardian angels and spotted what I was doing before I headed into crashing and burning status. I am very grateful it is safe to say and not ashamed of admitting that they probably did me a huge favour clamping down! Since discussing my issue with sewing and my slight dislike for practical fashion (literally) suddenly, it's all become more enjoyable and much easier to cope with. My confidence on machines and even just with a pair of scissors has improved immensely.
So, my February resolution: To be where I need to be at the time that I need to be there! Attendance and punctuality truly are key elements to a successful life as well as career. It's amazing what asking for a little help when you need it most can actually achieve.
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